But this weekend’s Gospel reading got me thinking of another
Danny Boyle movie – one of my all-time favorites – a film from 2004 entitled Millions. The title refers to the number of British pounds that a
young boy, Damian Cunningham, discovers on the side of a railroad track.
After a bag of money mysteriously lands in Damian’s
cardboard playhouse, he and his brother Anthony giddily count the money and set
to spending it all before it becomes obsolete in two weeks’ time, when the
movie indicates England will scrap pounds sterling for the Euro … you can tell this movie was made in 2004!
Damian’s brother Anthony wants to spend the money on toys,
gadgets, and even on real estate investments! But Damian wants to give the
money away to the poor. He is a
pious young man who rattles off the names, dates, and accomplishments of the
saints as if they were stats from the back of a baseball card.
And Damian’s devotion to the saints is rewarded throughout
the movie, as he is visited by, and converses with great saints, including
Theresa of Avila, Joseph, Nicholas, Francis of Assisi, and the Ugandan
Martyrs. Just as they truly do for
all of us in the spiritual life, these saints provide Damian with advice, inspiration,
and even defense against evil.
One of the most crucial scenes in the entire movie involves
a conversation young Damian has with St. Peter, who visits shortly after the young
man discovers that the money he found had in fact been stolen and misplaced by
bank robbers.
“I thought it was a miracle,” Damian explains to Peter, “but it’s just
robbed … can you still do good with it,” he asks.
In
response, St. Peter tells Damian the “background story” of today’s Gospel – the
multiplication of the loaves and fishes – and Danny Boyle has a bit of fun with
the story. According to St. Peter,
the five thousand who gathered on the hill that day all had secret stashes of
their own food, but they were “keeping it quiet, looking out for number one.”
But
when the young boy comes forward and offers the disciples his “five sardines,”
something amazing happens. All of
the people begin taking out their own food and start to share. And the plate of fish goes “all the way
around, and back to Jesus” and it still has the five fish and two loaves on it,
and yet everyone has had their fill.
St.
Peter tells Damian, “I think Jesus was a bit taken aback. He says, 'what happened? ' And I
just said, 'miracle.' And at first
I thought I'd fooled Him. But now I see it was
a miracle, one of His best.”
Damian doesn’t quite get the point of Peter’s story, or how it applies
to his predicament. Damian is
trying to do something really big and important to help the poor. He’s devastated that the money he
found, and thought was a miracle, could really be explained away so easily by a
police report.
So, St. Peter goes a little further: “You're trying too hard,” he tells Damian. “That kid, he
wasn't planning on doing a miracle. He wasn't planning anything, except lunch. Something
that looks like a miracle turns out to be dead simple.”
Despite the fact that Danny Boyle plays with the story a bit, and
downplays the supernatural element of the Gospels, he is, in a way, still able
to capture one of the crucial spiritual truths to be found in today’s Gospel
reading – a truth that we often miss in our own lives, and gloss over in a
Gospel story that we know so well.
The
multiplication of the loaves and fishes is the only miracle narrated in all
four of the Gospels. In John’s
version, which we’ve just heard, the evangelist is sure to mention that, “the
Jewish feast of Passover was near.”
And as the action quickly unfolds, John uses language borrowed from
accounts of the Last Supper and contained in the Eucharistic Prayer of the Mass
to this day: “Jesus took the loves, gave thanks, and distributed them.”
So we
all know very well that the story of the multiplication of the loaves and
fishes fulfills the prophecy of Elisha from our first reading, and foreshadows
the Eucharist that Jesus bestows to the Church before He dies, and that we
celebrate daily in His memory.
But
our familiarity with the story, and with the Mass itself, may blind us to some
of the subtler spiritual lessons contained in the story.
It’s
crucial, I think, that it’s a little boy who gives Jesus what amounts to the leftovers of a
previous meal. First, we have to
remember that children in Jesus’ day were not given the respect or the rights
they are given today. With women
and slaves they were relegated to an inferior, even insignificant status. Second, we should recognize the paucity
of what the child brings forward: just a couple small fish, and a few pieces of
bread.
And
yet, from this apparently insignificant person, and this seemingly insufficient
store, Jesus creates something spectacular. He provides for the needs of an enormous crowd.
And
the miracle doesn’t end there with everyone having “as much as they
wanted.” When the meal is finished,
Jesus gives the disciples what might seem to be a practical instruction, a mere afterthought. “Gather the fragments left over,” He tells them,
“So that nothing will be wasted.”
Friends,
Jesus isn’t just being a neat freak.
He isn’t merely being resourceful or environmentally conscious. The spiritual point is that nothing, not
the boy who brought the food, or the meager meal he brought, or even the left
over fragments and tiny crumbs, are too small for God.
The
miracle of the loaves and fishes, the miracle of the Last Supper, and the
Eucharistic shape of our entire lives as Christians, show us that something that
is in fact a miracle turns out to be pretty simple in its contents, and conversely, that simple things turn out to be miracles in the grace of God’s hands.
In Millions, St. Peter wanted young Damian
to realize that he was frustrated because he was “trying too hard;” thinking
and acting as if it were entirely up to him alone. But discipleship and holiness don’t require us to perform
large, conspicuous, seemingly miraculous good deeds as Damian had thought.
Rather,
in St. Paul’s words from our second reading, discipleship and holiness require
us to live with “humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one
another through love, and striving to preserve the unity of the spirit.”
Our
lives, however small or worthless they may sometimes feel to us; all the little
things, the daily actions we have to offer, however puny they sometimes seem to us … none
of them are too small for God to use, to turn into a miracle. He can make so much out of so little,
and He makes sure that nothing, absolutely nothing is wasted.
All of
it, all of us – like simple fragments of bread and wine – are matter for
miracles if only we, like the young boy in today’s Gospel, come forward and
bring what we can to the Lord and allow Him to use them, use us, to answer the
needs of all His people.






